Sleep, don't call me back okay?

So I have this problem with sleep right? My friend from across the country, he has this problem with sleep too. But his problem with sleep is different. For him, he's an insomniac; sometimes, he doesn't sleep for days. As for me, as soon as it becomes dark, I just seem to be unable to stay awake. I mean sure, it sounds normal and all right? I'm just an easy sleeper?

But really, I don't think it's that simple at all. Sleep kills me. Take for instance the fact that I have multiple chores I need to be finishing today, instead of finishing it, I sat on my bed, and fell asleep, again. I suppose you can mistake my sleepiness for laziness, but I'm pretty sure it's also some sort of psychological thing going on in my body and mind. I sleep so easy because it's so goddamn comfortable on my bed; it's so comfortable that it's better than being awake. My eyelids just can't seem to stay open, they're glued shut. Sleep just seems to feel better than reality.

But it's not all happy heaven and dreams when I sleep in the afternoon. Ever heard of sleep paralysis? According to dreamsnightmares.com, sleep paralysis is a condition in which when one is about to fall asleep, or just about to awake from sleep, he or she is unable to move, speak or cry out. And in the painting above called The Nightmare by Henry Fuseli; sleep paralysis is depicted pretty accurately.

I've already realized my sleep paralysis condition long ago and I don't really get nightmares anymore, but I still find it very difficult to get my body to move. Sometimes I even dream while I'm half awake, and I get up, but I don't really get up. It's this vicious cycle in my mind that's trying to get up, over and over again. It's kind of horrible and it gives me a killer headache.

So all I can say is, I hope I don't fall asleep again. Or at least, I hope one day I'll be able to better control my sleeping patterns. Perhaps I will be able to, once my life becomes relatively "more exciting" or full of purpose. Until then, sleep kills me, it takes time away from doing what I want to do and it gives me killer headaches. I don't want to be sleeping my life away. I want to stay awake like the rest of the American youth.

Anyway, stay tuned for more posts. I promise they'll be more exciting.

By the way, feel free to leave any comments or feedback if you'd like. It might give me reason to post more frequently. I don't want to be talking to myself in this blog now.